Unpleasant

Well I went to the doctor yesterday. The eye doctor. He did some shit with a syringe going through my eyeball or something and dropped fluid down my throat which proved nothing was wrong. Then I freaked out and reportedly went totally pale and my eyes felt funny and my hearing became dulled out and I had to lay down for a few minutes. So that was fun and entirely pointless.

My birthday is in a week on the 31st. Can't wait to feel obligated to go somewhere cause it's my birthday and I have an unpleasant and uncomfortable day with my family. I just remembered my birthday last year when my sister just gave me 100 dollars. I don't remember why but I gave it to my mother I think as part of a payment so she would buy me something expensive and then she never paid me back in any way and then she lost her job in December. I remember one birthday my family was like "so do you wanna go somewhere for your birthday" and I said "Yep. To sleep" because I was on a sleep during the evening schedule. I don't know why but I always get shitty presents. The only really good present I've ever received was a gamecube for christmas and all I played on it was Metroid Prime.

The absolute worst Christmas was when I got an acoustic guitar. I tried learning it for all of five seconds. Then the worst birthday was just before I dropped out of high school after receiving the same shitty laptop I use today. That was four years ago. So here's to the big 5 year anniversary next year of not having a fucking computer that works worth a shit and here's to my 19th anniversary of a life that isn't worth a shit either.